I miss you.

Kitsune and Juju are running around like maniacs. I don't blame them - they haven't been outside in a few days. I feel bad, but it's super duper cold outside. I know, excuses excuses. Dogs NEED to go outside, get some fresh air and relieve themselves. So, I guess I have no right to complain about the ridiculous amount of wee wee pads they go through, huh?

Like my pink camouflage background? Finally starting to feel like an "Army wife." ♥

I miss you. I am going through so many emotions right now. I feel: happy, nervous, anxious, excited, sad, scared, angry... I miss you so much. I can't put it in any other words. I miss your face. I miss your smell. I miss how you sneakily lay in my lap so I can give you head rubs. I miss you randomly asking me for kisses in the car. I miss how calm you are around the dogs (because Lord knows I need some 'calm' in my life right about now...). I miss you driving me every where (HEY! We were both thinking it...). I miss you keeping me warm at night. I miss waking up in your "nook." I miss my massages with happy endings. I miss it all. I miss you...

Well, onto happier things...

Work has been great this week, but then again, it's my last week so dad isn't interrupting me as much because he knows I have a lot to wrap up, and it's only Tuesday. Bo comes in tomorrow. Hopefully the 18 pages of training notes I typed up (complete with a table of contents!) will suffice. I really do not want to be disturbed, especially in the next 2 weeks...

I'm trying to write about other things, but all I can think about is you. It's funny. Everyone calls me "brave" and "strong" but they don't see me at my weak moments. Yeah, I may smile when I stop in to Starbucks to grab my Gingerbread latte. Yeah, I may send a text and end it with a ":)" or sound cheery on the phone... but my heart is breaking. I know it's only been 6 months, but I miss you so much, it hurts. I know that sounds cliche, but it's how I feel. I toss & turn in bed every night, so I climb into bed an hour earlier than normal, so I can fall asleep at a reasonable time. Sometimes when I think about you, and how much I miss you, I tear up and end up crying myself to sleep. It sounds pathetic, and yeah, it is...

Hurry up and come home SGT. XOXO. I love you! ♥