Sgt Kim's mid-tour leave.

I have a lot to update about !!!

First thing's first -- David, ahem, SGT Kim, came home last Friday. It's been so wonderful having my sweetie back home. I'm feeling all sappy right now, especially since I'm blogging while listening to sample music from our string quartet. Yeah, feeling pretty lovey-dovey right now. ♥

We surprised his parents the night he came home. We just went over to their house, rang the doorbell, and his mom answered. No tears! She was just in so much shock that he was home, since he was scheduled to take his mid-tour leave in March. It was a sweet moment, and I will always remember the look on their faces and the smiles all of us shared.

Saturday, we went to dinner at Burke Garden with both sets of parents and my sister. My mom got teary eyed hugging David, and actually started crying when she watched the video of us surprising his parents. It's really touching to see how much my mom loves David. She says she feels like he's already a part of the family, and really, truly, loves him. Dinner was nice. Dad was in a weird mood, but he's been down lately because my mom has to have surgery. Long story short; she has a slip disc and it's pretty bad, and yeah, the epidural and steroid shots weren't doing anything, so she has to have surgery. Yup. It stinks but I'm just trying to stay positive for her.

UGH, I wish I could update about one of the BIGGEST things that has happened, but David said that it's our little secret. And no, I am not pregnant!!! At least, I hope not! No kids until after we're married. And, we want to enjoy married life for a few years before we bring kids into the picture...



I'm so happy. We are spending each and every day of his mid-tour leave being as productive as we can, and just, having fun, enjoying each other's company, and relaxing. I love having him home, and it just gives me strength to be positive and strong for the next 6 months until he comes home, for good. That is, unless he re-enlists, but we'll deal with that when the time comes. We have one more week together, and it's going to be a great one. I love him with all my heart. He is, my best-friend, and my rock. ♥

Life is good. La bella vie, yeah... ;)

I miss you.

Kitsune and Juju are running around like maniacs. I don't blame them - they haven't been outside in a few days. I feel bad, but it's super duper cold outside. I know, excuses excuses. Dogs NEED to go outside, get some fresh air and relieve themselves. So, I guess I have no right to complain about the ridiculous amount of wee wee pads they go through, huh?

Like my pink camouflage background? Finally starting to feel like an "Army wife." ♥

I miss you. I am going through so many emotions right now. I feel: happy, nervous, anxious, excited, sad, scared, angry... I miss you so much. I can't put it in any other words. I miss your face. I miss your smell. I miss how you sneakily lay in my lap so I can give you head rubs. I miss you randomly asking me for kisses in the car. I miss how calm you are around the dogs (because Lord knows I need some 'calm' in my life right about now...). I miss you driving me every where (HEY! We were both thinking it...). I miss you keeping me warm at night. I miss waking up in your "nook." I miss my massages with happy endings. I miss it all. I miss you...

Well, onto happier things...

Work has been great this week, but then again, it's my last week so dad isn't interrupting me as much because he knows I have a lot to wrap up, and it's only Tuesday. Bo comes in tomorrow. Hopefully the 18 pages of training notes I typed up (complete with a table of contents!) will suffice. I really do not want to be disturbed, especially in the next 2 weeks...

I'm trying to write about other things, but all I can think about is you. It's funny. Everyone calls me "brave" and "strong" but they don't see me at my weak moments. Yeah, I may smile when I stop in to Starbucks to grab my Gingerbread latte. Yeah, I may send a text and end it with a ":)" or sound cheery on the phone... but my heart is breaking. I know it's only been 6 months, but I miss you so much, it hurts. I know that sounds cliche, but it's how I feel. I toss & turn in bed every night, so I climb into bed an hour earlier than normal, so I can fall asleep at a reasonable time. Sometimes when I think about you, and how much I miss you, I tear up and end up crying myself to sleep. It sounds pathetic, and yeah, it is...

Hurry up and come home SGT. XOXO. I love you! ♥

We are first time home owners! Woohoo!

David and I are officially home owners!!! Yes, we got the house!!! Centreville, here we come!!! This is starting to be an amazing month, for multiple reasons, but three main reasons. When I got the news from my realtor earlier this afternoon, I was at Starbucks and just started screaming. Yeah, I looked nuts0 but it was just amazing news! David and I have been house hunting since February! Anyways, off to bed. Goodnight world! ♥

Work.. Family.. Both?

The past few days have been interesting . . .

Today, I officially gave my "two weeks notice." The next two weeks are going to go by extremely slow, and be stressful at times, but I think this will be better for the outcome. It's so frustrating talking to my parents sometimes because they are even more stubborn than I am! I don't want to really get into detail about today. I feel good about the decision, and cannot look forward to December 17, but just thinking of everything involved with it, makes my head hurt.

I received a call from my realtor earlier today, and he said we are ALMOST done wrapping things up with the house! We are just waiting on the bank to approve our offer (or counter offer, which I hope they don't...), AND he said that he lowered our offer. Something about him knowing the other agent, and yada yada yada. He said to give him another 7-10 days, and we will have an answer. Everyone knows I have very little patience, but I kind of have no choice in this scenario.

I have other really good news, but I can't really talk about. HA. Don't you have when people do that? "Hey! Guess what? Never mind!" I'll update, as soon as I can.

So, this is going to sound really selfish... I am REALLY hoping the Koreas don't go to war, because if David re-enlists after this deployment, then he will most likely get deployed there. And even if he didn't have to, he would probably volunteer. I am so very proud of my man, but I can't help but worry about him sometimes. It's funny, for the past few months, it's been about: me me me. I'M so sad. I'M so stressed. I miss him. But it's really about HIM. I should be HIS support. And you know what? If he re-enlists + deploys again, we will deal with it then. Like I told him, I don't like it, but I will always support him. He's my rock, and I love him, no matter what he does. ♥

I hate cold days; I love slightly chilly days... you know, hoodie days. Cold days make my hand hurt. But then again, it's probably my fault. When dad got a DWI a few years back, there was other stuff going on with the family, and I had been pushed to the limit. So, like other dumbasses, I thought punching something would make me feel better. WRONG. My dumbass punched the brick garage, and totally smashed my hand. It swelled up so much that we had to cut my ring off my finger. Yeah, that was not a fun day. I'm pretty sure it was broken, but of course, I didn't bother going to the doctor. So, on cold days, I have to crack my hand back into place... if that makes any sense. Ouchie.

Okay, well time to relax on the couch with Kitsune + Juju before Greys Anatomy comes on. I can't believe that tomorrow is Friday! It seems like it was just Thanksgiving, right? Well, I just have to tough it out for a few more weeks, and it'll be Christmas!

I was fired by my dad.

I think God really hates me. I don't know what I did to deserve this? Seriously.

Let's see... Tuesday night, dad e-mails me saying I'm fired. I don't hear from him until maybe Friday or Saturday? basically telling me not to "push him." Between Tuesday + time of contact, he was using my sister as a messenger, telling me to come back to work, and saying that I am in the wrong. During that time, I avoided all contact from my mom (she's in Korea right now) since I just did not want to hear about work.... which lead to an angry e-mail from her, surprisingly blaming me for everything as well.

Which leads to: TODAY. I stayed up all night/morning after Hieu & I watched "Due Date" and ended up talking to David + Sherrie. Sherrie and I went to Starbucks since we were already up, and talked. The day was good, until I got home and noticed a bunch of missed calls from my mom + of course, her e-mail.

All of this lead to my dad sending me f*cked up e-mails, texts, and threats. He's drunk right now, which isn't surprising, going off on anyone in his way. This includes, me, my sister + my mom, which of course, is all MY fault. He's telling me not to come near them (the family), and that I'm "going to be sorry."

So basically, it's MY fault that the company may possibly get f*cked up (is it just me, or is the boss supposed to run the company and not the administrative assistant? HM, maybe it's just me...), and if our family is ruined, it's my fault. Well, last time I checked, our family wasn't all "happy + close" to begin with.

So, looks like I'll be at work tomorrow, at 9AM sharp! HE fires me, YET I'm expected to still show up on Monday? Yeah, I pretty much predicted that. Mom said to go in, and IF dad tells me to leave, that's when I have to leave. So... I'm going in, probably no pay, expecting to get bitched at, and to be quite frank, I'm anticipating some abuse too. That's nothing new in our family though. Growing up, I think everyone got their ass beat from my dad (to put it nicely). Being a little girl and seeing my mom's blood everywhere was NOT fun. Just saying.

So, this begs me to wonder...

What the f*ck did I do SO wrong? WHAT did I do to deserve this?

Don't ever mix work and family.

Okay, well here is an update from my last post:

Apparently, when dad was on the work computer, he came across my Word document for a job listing to post on Craigslist. So, instead of giving me the benefit of the doubt and talking to me, as we agreed to, he jumped the gun and "fired" me. The whole reason I had this typed up, was because when we were supposed to talk, I was going to tell him (calmly, which is why I wanted to talk to him Wednesday morning... so I could cool down + collect my thoughts) that I think it's better if we find someone to take my place at work, and I would train them however long it took... 2 weeks... 2 months... doesn't matter.

So, after him ignoring my e-mails + texts to him since Tuesday night, he calls me yesterday. I didn't pick up, and he texted me afterwards warning me not to take things "too far." Okay dad. Thanks for the threat.

Long story short: he continued to text me saying that he had a right to tell me to "hurry up" because he's my boss, and I'm his employee. He said that I have anger problems, which lead me to tell him that work was the reason WHY I've been so angry. After a bunch of texting back + forth, he accused me of "tricking" him, like my last boss. I'm not too sure what that means since the last person I worked for, had a meeting with me to discuss why I was quitting. Maybe it's just me, but I don't think working for company with racist women harassing you is a healthy one. /shrugs

Anyways, so I guess I'm "blogging" on here since I'm torn.

Okay... it's 8:50 AM right now. A phone call from David + my sister kept me up, which lead to picking my sister up and heading over to Starbucks to talk. We had a really good, but somewhat depressing talk about family. I got home, fed the dogs, washed the dishes, washed my hair, and now I'm about to lay on the couch with the girls to watch some tv. I'll probably fall asleep. I'm hoping my dad doesn't call me later to "talk." I already know he's going to bitch about me coming back to work for him, or at least help him out while he's in Korea. The only reason I'm hesistant to even temporarily come back is because 1) it's never temporary when I come back, since I'm such a push over, and 2) I've been very aggressive searching for jobs, sending my resume out left + right, so if I get any calls back for interviews and I'm working for my dad, yeah... that's not going to work out.

Eyes are starting to shut. I'll write more later. Toodles!

Wait... did I just get fired?

Lately, work has been incredibly stressful, getting worse & worse with each passing day. I guess it can't really be called normal work stress when your boss is your father, right? Right.

I finally hit my breaking point. (Funny, because I said this months ago, sobbing to my mother.) Before I left work yesterday afternoon, I told my dad that I wanted to talk. So, that was that. The plan was to talk to him, after I had some time to cool off, and convince him to find a replacement for my position, and train them thorougly, so I could finally walk away from the company and find another job.

7 hours after I left work, I got an e-mail from him, saying the following:

From now you can stay home.

What the hell is that even supposed to mean? Is that his way of saying I'm fired? I mean, come on! Either way, I have it in writing so you know what? I'm sleeping in! No alarms set! Then, when I wake up to feed/walk the dogs, we're going to head over to Starbucks to enjoy the wonderful day with wonderful company. Yup! That's the plan.

Why do I have a feeling that he's going to call me in the morning, either 1) bitching at me about not coming in (even though he said to stay home) or 2) being nice and asking me to come back. Here's to hoping that I stand my ground, so I can move on to bigger & better things!

Goodnight!

DK3

You're all that I want, and more than I deserve.
I love you, and I miss you. Happy 3 year anniversary babe. ♥

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Kitsune @ 16 months // Juju @ 9 months ♥

Random post

So . . . my 10 week break from classes is coming to an end. Classes start back up next Tuesday. I'm not very excited about being super-duper busy again (work, school, dogs, family, wedding, house, etc.) but I'll make it work--I always do.

I'm at work right now, so I'll have to update more later. Work has been either REALLY GREAT or REALLY HORRIBLE. It's always extremes with me. Along with work going up & down, the same goes for me and a certain family member. At this point, I am actually left with no words to say.

Juju graduated obedience class!

Juju is oficially a graduate of Petsmart's Beginner Obedience class!
I'm so proud of my (not-so) little girl. ♥

I miss you.

I was driving home and it hit me: I'm going home, to no one, again.

Goddamn, I miss you so fucking much. It feels like someone is ripping my heart into a million little pieces. My birthday is next week, and that just makes it ten times worse--it's just another reminder that you're over there, and I'm over here.

I have never felt so alone in my life.

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my chubby-wubby ♥

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This is how Kitsune & I spend our Fridays.

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Kitsune @ 16 weeks ♥ Juju @ 9 weeks
My babies used to be so tiny...

Starbucks supports 299th EnCo!

Starbucks (Store 7662) was kind enough to have a coffee donation for David and his unit (299th En Co). Complete strangers came in and donated coffee, along with words of encouragement for the soldiers overseas. I sent the package last Friday, and they received it today. They really appreciate it, and it made their day. A big THANK YOU to the baristas at Starbucks @ Burke Center--you guys are amazing! ♥

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Kitsune & Juju did not want to get out of bed this morning!

I ordered my wedding dress!

I ordered my wedding dress! It will be here in 20 weeks. Mom made me order 2 sizes smaller than the one I tried on weeks ago. I'm dying to post pictures online, but David doesn't want to see it and I want it to be a surprise. Time to get to work and drop the last twenty-five pounds!

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I had a wonderful time at Burke Lake with the girls. ♥

Missing You

"My happiness disappeared the moment you were gone. Don't think I ever believed that this day would come. Now all I'm feeling is lost and numb. And ohhh I know I promised, Mmm that I would try. But I, yes I, miss you, and it's killing inside I'll always be thankful for the time we had. We were blessed I should celebrate but I feel too sad. All the wonderful memories just make me fall apart. And it feels like somebody's stabbed me in my heart. And ohhh I know I promised, Mmm that I wouldn't cry. But I, yes I, miss you, and it's killing inside. Ooh well I, yes I, miss you, want you by my side. Walking, holding hands, talking, making plans, touching my heart my soul..." (Jem)

... and he's gone

I love you and I am so proud of you, Sgt. Kim. ♥