It's not a cold; it's cancer.

I'm getting really f*cking sick and tired of EVERYONE telling me I'm a bad daughter. I have absolutely nothing to prove. You think because I'm smiling that everything is okay? Just because I'm not crying 24/7 doesn't mean I don't care. Yes, I know she has CANCER. It's a serious situation. I am in no means, trying to make light of the situation; simply trying to stay positive for my mom, as she asked me to do.

It's just so hurtful to hear people accusing me of being a bad daughter. When she had NO ONE; when my dad was abusing her (verbally & physically), lashing out at her, when my sister was kicked out of the house because of rebelling (I don't want to get into detail), she came to ME. She told me I was the ONLY person she could turn to. So, you know what? If anything, my mom and I share a bond that NO ONE else in the family does.

The two people I love more than anything, are David and my mom. I would do absolutely anything for them. (MAYBE even eat a tomato!!!) Those two people are my WORLD; one has cancer, and the other is in Iraq. Life sure sucks sometimes, doesn't it?

Sigh. I love you both so very much. I'm so thankful to have you both in my life. ♥

I've been knitting/crocheting all my negative energy away, since I don't have a treadmill yet. I knit my mom a scarf, and Kitsune & Juju new collars. They'll have these on until I get a chance to ship ThePoochStore my custom fabric for their collars to be made. Well, back to knitting/crocheting while I watch The Dog Whisperer, then snuggle session with my Shiba girls.

These are the fabrics I bought for Kitsune & Juju's custom collars. The top one is for Kitsune, middle is for Juju, and the pink camouflage is for their martingale collars. Pink camo because they support their daddy. Go Army!